End of an Era

So as the year comes closer to its end many people I know have been forced to consider their lives. An era is ending and as it does decisions are having to be made. Whether people are deciding to stay close to home or move away, every option is being considered. For me I've been lucky, many of the options that other people have are not available to me in the direction I want to take myself.

In New Zealand I've only been able to find two universities which offer the course I desire. The first is only a ten minuet drive from my current home, the other is hours away from any member of my family, whether they be close or distant. For me, family is a huge motivator, so the latter option wasn't really even viable. I'd die (figuratively) without them driving me forward and pushing me harder. I'm not only doing this to get the education, but to prove to the world that I can.

OK, so this post maybe different to those I said I would put up, but how would anyone be able to take me seriously without knowing at least a little about me first. Credibility is a motivator for many around the globe and throughout history. I may be young but I'm not what most would consider to be naive. I understand that my youth alone could make me out to be unreliable. What I endeavour to show, even if it is only a beginning, is that I hold credibility as closely to myself as many of the great academics.

So as I'm forced to look at the way I live, I'm learning more about two things; myself and the world around me. As children, all those who have grown up in economic and social stability see the world through a rose tint. Nothing could hurt us, nothing could ruin our world. Then, somewhere along the way, we loose that innocence. It's this loss of innocence which I believe, marks the first step in the journey of becoming an adult, able to look after ourselves in a world that isn't fair but still holds the wonder of youth, just seen in a different light.

Do you ever remember waking early on Christmas morning, when the house is silent, and sneaking a look and quick poke of the presents before anyone could possibly see? Would you still do that now?
The awe that we felt in our primary school years is not gone, just hidden under layers of experience and time. If you search deep, for some they wont have to look far, you'll find that child inside you, still excited at ever moment that passes us all by. If ever there was a time of uncertainty, all one would have to do is visit that small child that resides in us.

As young as I am, and as much as I am yet to see, I know that one day there will be a dawning of understanding. Who knows what happens after life, so why are people wrapping themselves in a blanket of stress and worry? I myself am prone to taking life too seriously, making myself almost sick with uncertainty, having difficulty with finding that joy and wonder of life.

We all need to take a step back and ask a simple question, 'Am I who I want to be?' Live life with no regret, mistakes are mandatory but regret is a choice that people do not have to make.